Tuesday, February 23, 2010

a new phase

so things are changing...not the seasons...no it is still winter and still very cold, but things are changing.  Why so vague? you ask...because they are morphing into things a bit unknown.  A machine has been set in motion to begin moving in a new direction and this process has everything to do with setting it down and watching it go.  I was listening to a radio talk show the other day and they were talking about a little space robot going to Venus.  It would take 4 months to get there and the life span of this robot would be only 3 hours and maybe a little more if they were lucky.  This robot is the work of many hands and 3 million dollars...and they just shoot it up into space and trust the process from there...can you imagine?  all this time and energy for 3 hours and who knows what will happen to it in those 3 hours?  So the robot lands and now what?   Talk about going with the flow.   Am I pretending to be a space robot being shot into orbit for 4 months?  kind of...will i last longer than 3 hours?  for sure.  Does anyone at Nasa know what to expect?  i don't know.  Do I?  nope....it is all in the work before the launch...the trust, the skill, the conditioning of the mind and body.  When I land, only then will things present themselves and it might become a little clearer at that moment, but it might be even harder...who the hell knows???

i suppose that is the way life goes and for that, i am excited...not without some apprehension of course, but mostly excitement.

the next 6 months will be a journey of hard work on myself and on the things i love.  I intend to develop self discipline to bring out the best in myself and others.

the boat sets sail on Friday.

Love and Understanding

Monday, February 8, 2010

The Road

the rope, originally uploaded by Justin Davis Davanzo.

This sums it up right about now...how I feel...or at least how I want to feel these days...skipping rope on the road of life...i always want to remember this moment and the feelings i had during this day...the warm sun, the freedom, the not knowing what would be in store in the immediate future, the quiet all around...the sound of the humming rope tapping the pavement and whirring past my ears with each turn, the breathing that becomes methodic when skipping rope...

some days are better than others of course...today it is snowing and i have a cold and although i am happy to rest a bit, it feels as if the road will not be there tomorrow, which I know is not true...the road is always there and the journey is always ready to be taken.

I think this image sums up my life in a way...the road is open and willing and life should be about skipping rope and smiling and being free...

Love and Understanding.