Tuesday, June 16, 2009

a blend

Blue Base, originally uploaded by Justin Davis Davanzo.

ever notice the feeling of days just blending together with no separation or concept of time telling us that things are actually not the same moment? not sure if that even make sense...what I mean is...sometimes the days just blend together with no chance of slowing down or revealing the secret of the sauce. the secret blending sauce of the day...The Secret Day Sauce. (see? it just sort of takes shape) It is like one big stir fry some times...just mixed all together and you go to sleep in the day you are in and seemingly wake up in the same day. Not from a standpoint of "Groundhog's Day" or "My life sucks and it all seems the same"....kind of day...no. It blends because it is smoothly sailing along in a vacation dreamy kind of way. Not to say there aren't moments where you panic because the buffet is the same as yesterday, but then you realize..."i won't be hungry". This is the secret sauce of life that helps meld the hours together in a peanut butter and honey on toast type of way. What the heck am I talking about you ask?

dammit...haven't you been paying attention? I am talking about waking up in your same surroundings with the same things around you with the person you love and feeling as if there is no such thing as day or night. feeling as if this life is on a big giant all you can eat cruise with shows at 5 every day.

ok...now at some point, in the middle of all this comfort and joy and secret sauce, things begin to marinate to a point of different flavor and as my mom says "the sauce has made friends" they have taken on each others characteristics and you can not taste one without the other...

So there it is...my life is like a secret marinade that i get to soak in day in and day out and along the way i get to make friends with all the other vegetables...preferably the cute one with patunias in her hair.

Love and Understanding.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

life scaffolding

plank, originally uploaded by Justin Davis Davanzo.

yep...this is how life feels sometimes...just like the picture above...a web of scaffold with ropes and planks, all there to aid in the climb but an element of rickety openess that you could fall out of or off at any moment. If you desire, you can climb to the top by navigating out and around or snake your way through each level hoping to find an open window to just get inside and off the scaffold. Right in the middle of the long spans, these things tend to bend and bounce and they feel very unstable and could possibly break from overuse and old age, but they don't. It is the age old analogy of climbing the ladder i suppose, but i think i like this one better..."life is like a scaffold" With a ladder all the rungs are there already...with scaffolding you have to set up one level, climb up to it and put up the higher level and only if you have the right boards, or the right amount of boards and all the safety clips need to be in place and...you get it....when it is done and you climb down to the bottom there is a maze of levels and one day you may spend all day on the bottom and then the next you might be at the top, but they are all your levels and you have built every part of it and therefore it is safe and worn and you trust your own work in building it.

So here is to constantly building our scaffolding and learning how to navigate through its web and bouncy planks that are too far off the ground....

Love and Understanding

Monday, June 1, 2009


fence, originally uploaded by Justin Davis Davanzo.

it is hard to not get overwhelmed with all the things we want to do or mean to do in life...each day...it is hard to relax into the chaos of creation and the feeling of not creating. I find that the days where i sit and think and wonder and worry and ponder the "what if" scenario are the hardest but they are also necessary for our growth. Like crawling through a dark tunnel and not knowing for sure if there is a small exit at the other end just big enough to slip through and take a life saving breathe of air right at the moment when it feels tightest in the chest. Trusting that our lives will not stagnate in the tunnel and the light we faintly see at the end is the light of our hearts reaching out to us as we journey in the unsettling darkness. To live this life takes courage and trust not only in ourselves, but in the process of those around us and in the universe itself. Trusting that the waking hours and the sleeping hours will take good care of us.

The daily worry about our lives can stack up and get us tangled in the complexity of the web we call life. We must not get caught in it by struggling like a fly in a sticky engineered net...we must relax into it and bounce across the surface with grace and glee and gigantic loads of energy leaving behind the others who cannot find the way out.

Love and Understanding.