Monday, August 27, 2012

Swimming Upstream

Lately there is a feeling of understanding that i have had and it has to do with swimming upstream.  I don't know much about Salmon but I do know that their lives depend on the action of swimming upstream to live.  It is an action that defies the senses and odds and along the way the obstacles are great and many.  These days there is a fight in my life to maintain the life that I have lived that turns me upstream and at the times when i most need to go in that direction can also be some of the most confusing times, since when i look around, most are going downstream.  I am not saying downstream is a bad thing, but for some it is just not why life is important.  There are certain traits and people and tribes who go against the grain and live a life least expected and often not understood.  There are people who risk it all to find life and to live a little wilder and and a little freer, but to commit to that path is also saying that life as we know it won't be enough.  It won't fulfill us in the way it fulfills the others, content to let the water push them and take them out into the sea.  As I awake today i feel an urge to fight harder than ever before and swim harder than ever before up the stream past the rapids and through the hunting bears and the fisherman and the boulders and the a place where only a few will finally make it to live and know that it was for a purpose and a reason and that the waters weren't always there to soothe you, they were there to mold you and make you stronger and braver and bigger than ever before.

Love and Understanding

Friday, August 3, 2012

The Pond and Other Musings

So my new job...its located in two large office buildings in a part of town that is fairly busy and bustling and i find that its hard to find a spot that is quiet and relaxing, however there is one which happens to be a very long and large Coy pond located between the two it are probably 40 or 50 pretty big Coy and they are really amazing to see.  I find myself walking next to the pond on my way in and any time that I am outside walking just to peak at them.  When you get close they swim up and put there face out (do fish have faces?) and sort of make this big open mouth movement as if to say "hello!"
I called the above fish Flavius and we had a moment...its the moments like that where I feel a little out of place in this world, when everyone else is running by with their phones texting and not noticing the simple beauty. I am not saying i am better than others, I am just saying when i have a quiet reflective moment with Flavius, i am remembering that i beat to a different drum and being in the corporate world again makes it all the more evident that this needs to be fostered and supported.  And so now i make a point to see Flavius and the others each time i come by.  I am reminded to take it slow and notice things as I try and still take pictures of the simple moments below, this was in a little restaurant yesterday and I just loved it...the old scale, the was perfectly set and its those moments of secretly knowing that I can still see them that grounds me....especially now that I carry around two phones and wear a watch.  Funny how things work.  Well at least it's Friday and I get to have a weekend....Love and Understanding. J