Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Snow Days

it has been a long winter...this peak still has snow on May 21 and although the day was warm, it was super windy.  It seems that even the weather these days is having some angst and some confusion.  So that makes me feel better since I am not the only one.  As of late, there is a general feeling of overall floating, which can be nice sometimes, but can also feel precarious due to its relaxed nature that brings upon a feeling of not being able to swim, or at least not wanting to.  I think it is important to have these times of floating and relaxing, but for some reason I always find it to be a huge challenge.  I get nervous and restless and sometimes depressed for small reasons, but the truth is, I am detoxing from the past few months of too much work and not enough relaxing time...so my challenge becomes, what do I do with all this time.

Good question.  Its not that I am being lazy and doing nothing, it just feels like at the moment, i have no particular direction.  I can think of many times in life that this feeling comes up and as I trust the motion, things come my way and I am open to the new experiences..sort of a life meditation.

As life brings its changes and challenges, meeting them head on can be hard work sometimes.  This work must be done though and by being aware of it, the forces will stay in line and become part of the daily process.  I asked myself last night what kind of goals i had set and realized that as of late, not many...at least not many that were specific enough to bring me forward.  Of course I meet little goals each day which is fun, but I am talking about a larger goal...and that is my challenge right now.  I am searching for the goal that will carry me forward and propel me up.  Not unlike this picture, where from far away, the mountain looms, but if I made a goal to go over it, I would simply need to go forward.  So that is what I will continue to do....Go Forward.

Love and Understanding

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