Originally this was about my Escape...but these days, this is about the way of the world..the things that cross my mind, and maybe yours..the creative battles and truimphs and losses...it is about love and understanding of ourselves first and others second...it is about doing what we love and being afraid to try...and then trying...I am blessed with the readers on this blog and my family and loves and my friends....thank you..
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
ok..i am a bit tired this morning...moving slow and waking up bit by bit. This winter is a strange one....much milder than last year, although my mind is foggy with my knee surgery from last year and I wonder if it just felt harder. At this time last year i was on the couch recovering from knee surgery...wow...amazing how time goes by and when I think of how lucky i am this year to be out and about and skiing and working and having fun i am reminded of how important it is to appreciate it all. so i got up earlier than i wanted to. My new work schedule has me working until 10:30 and not really going to bed until 12:30 or 1 so i usually sleep till 8:30 anyway, but sometimes i just feel more tired than i think i should. not sure if it is the idea of work that makes me tired sometimes or the overwhelming coziness of my bed that makes me tired. nonetheless, if I look back on things it gets my attention and has me up and about making sure I don't waste too much time sleeping...a good 8 hours for me...until kids come along, i'll take it. all of this adds up to a whirlwind feeling sometimes...wanting to accomplish so many things each week, and having to make lists and pick them off with a slower more methodical purpose...giving myslef permission to not have to do it ALL right now. That is the big challenge these days. I want to do it all, write my book, be in plays, work on my photography, ride my bike, travel. So i am reminded by my soul mate that we have a long time ahead of us to do it all and so I sit back and feel cozy about that. there is no magic clock ticking telling me i have two weeks left to create, but I am aware that time is going by and as long as I am doing the things i enjoy, that is what is important. So i will continue to make small gains in all my creative endeavors and make sure that I pay attention to the days and what they have in store. Love and Understanding.