What's the point?

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ok...something important for us to remember..especially for those of us that have maybe just made a huge transition in life or chosen the path less travelled....Does it feel ungrounded? Does it make us question ourselves? Do we doubt? Do we worry in large amounts at the moment we go to bed and the world is silently shutting down all around us while our body and mind is firing non stop questions, doubts, worries and self chastising criticism? If so, keep reading...you are perfectly, 100%, completely, absolutely and hilariously normal...i'm not saying you don't need help of some sort, but you are normal. I use help loosely, not the type of help that some may need in the form of white jackets and pills in a small plastic shot glass Ala Nurse Ratchet style, which by the way, we should all be so lucky to have Chief as our friend. (if you have never watched One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest with Mr. Nicholson, you should...for two reasons, it is a great film and it will make you feel less crazy...) I am talking about the help in all of our resources, our minds, our lifestyle, our everyday moment of ability to change and cope...for some, therapy may be a huge downer, somehow triggering a thought they are weak and can't do it on there own...good, that is what you should realize...you can't do it on your own and you might be weak in some area of your life...that is ok and awesome because now you can start practicing how to get stronger...for example...i feel like a week man with no muscle in my leg and all the things that have come along with it...the very first time i went to Physical Therapy I hated it cause it made me feel even weaker..being around other weak people..but then I remembered...that is the process of getting STRONG again...being even STRONGER THAN BEFORE...the things that don't kill us DO make us stronger. I don't care how cliched that may sound...it is true..so accept the weakness of whatever you need to and take a deep breathe and realize that we are all weak at one time or another and need the help of those around us that come from experiencing that triumph over the so called and percieved weakness...it is a great strength to recognize your weakness and embrace it and use it to grow and become wiser and stronger....Don't do it alone!!! who ever thinks that they can do it completely alone is either totally insane or stubborn or unwilling to accept that very few things in life can be done alone..ok, maybe some sports and some creative activities are "done" alone, but i'll bet they didn't get there alone..i'll bet that they had someone at sometime, inspire, teach, push, expect, hurt...whatever the catalyst, they got there with someone...now when we look at this in the grand scheme of life from a more complicated view of subjects like....i feel guilty that I have this or that I did this or whatever it may be, then we need to learn why...we need to be strong enough to admit that we feel that way and need someone to guide us, if only for a moment...that is strength...it doesn't mean you shouldn't go to the depths of sorrow, anger, frustration...you should, but you should also be ok with speaking and reaching out and realizing that it may be time to reach out to your tribe....i had a tribe member reach out to me yesterday...and it was sooo brave and meaningful and the strength it took to admit to me that she felt ridiculous and guilty and sad is a great moment in her life of looking inward...of waking up and unmasking the "perfect" life we all think we might have...that angst and frustration and confusion is the best thing in the world to experience...it means you are a human being....how many times i have felt that way...why just last week i think i was catatonic on the couch feeling like i had somehow failed and that I would never be the same again..silly, but true, but it needed to go there and go deep and feel....otherwise we are not alive and true and in complete denial of the ups and downs of life...how beautiful is it that we get to feel all of that....beautiful indeed....today is another day to test ourselves...to face our fears, and our doubts; to give into the scary unknown of today and not worry so much about the grand picture..keep it simple and breathe and know that you are not alone in this grand adventure so full of love, joy, fear and unknown...what fun would it be if we had all the answers and knew everything that would happen?

I say live life the best you can in any given moment, no matter what, even if that moment is filled with guilt...live in the guilt and accept it...completely.

love and understanding.