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sit with me, originally uploaded by Justin Davis Davanzo.

so here it is...the eve of Christmas...seems surreal really. I am up and it is a beautiful day here in Boulder. The sun is shining and the world seems just a bit slower, except for the squirrel i saw running back and forth from tree to tree in the snow next to the frozen gray stream out of our window...i suppose he is looking for one more nut to store, or maybe he is just enjoying the day...i don't know, but that was the first thing I saw this morning...so i got up...shuffled out barefoot and Tita was there with the coffee ready and i think my hair was a bit punk rock off to one side and my throat was dry and i put cream in the coffee with natural sugar and proceeded to the creative nook in our small dwelling...the place we go to live in our world of music, photos, paintings..the box, the sunken studio, the creative cube...there is a small heater in there we named Herman the Heater...he is on and working hard to keep us warm, and our small tree Herald is sitting with his lights on and presents under the tree...did I say small? yes...i mean little, but big in spirit...and the wood floor is cold on my socks and I am slowly waking up to another day in the soft world of creativity and love.

i remember thinking in Santa Monica, that the norm is not the norm but if you are there it is the norm..what the hell does that mean??? you ask....well for example..here in Boulder everyone, and I am not exaggerating, i mean probably 70% of the cars you see on the road are Subarus....ok, so in LA, the norm is Porsche, Ferrari, Mercedes, Lamborghini...more so than I ever remember...oh and Bentleys..that is a big one too...i mean, man..how the heck do you look around and not feel like that is just...well...normal??? to have a car that costs 150 thousand greenies...? ok...what does that mean. Nothing really...just something I noticed. the unreal world of the world, the perception of the world around us and what it sometimes looks and feels like...

here is another one...how about the perception of love? I'll bet if you stand or sit in one place today, and watch, you will see that the norm in this world is love...watch for couples and families, and mothers and fathers and sisters and brothers...watch them all around you...i'll bet that when you see it, you'll remember that things are the way they are supposed to be...Just like the cars, there are times when we forget to push past the perception of the world in which we live and are told to fear an worry and forget and not love...

Sitting in a chair quietly today, writing and wishing that the way i have lived my life had been stronger at times, I realize that this is the best I can do...i don't say this for being in need of a pep talk...i say this in the reality of the life we live...the thing that matters is today and the courage and strength it takes for all of us to sit and reach out and live and laugh and love and say what we are really feeling and thinking at the moment we need to...or not...maybe just smiling and standing up and leaving that moment to a magical bench in a park on a day you saw the world pass by in love....smiling to yourself because you managed to catch a glimpse of those two in the grass who just realized they can't be without each other....


Love and Understanding.