Saturday, May 31, 2008

Desire


DSC_0322, originally uploaded by boxersiciliano.

I don't know this man, but I saw him running and he was one of the few that was completely lost in his world of running...his world of desire, his moment in time...The kind of person you want to know what the story is...He's kinda like a wizard it think and I hope i see him somewhere around Boulder.

I loved watching this race because there were 53,000 people with the same goal...to run, walk, jog, whatever it might be, and finish a 6 mile journey...the desire to do something..to be a part of some collective energy towards a single moment and goal and to share it with a ton of other people...and the interesting thing that I noticed is at any given moment you could search the body language and the eyes of the thousands of people running by and pick out their moment of desire or their thought process...they had reached their particular moment of triumph, possibly running faster than they had planned or accomplishing something they never thought possible..or their joy in being a part of the huge procession...

The desire that drives us onward and forward, through the tough times and the joyful times, the desire to be alive and have fun, to test ourselves and push our minds and bodies to places that we might not have realized they could go. I think for some this is more of a daily practice and for others it is a very difficult practice. I know for me, I am pretty good at testing myself physically, but I need to continue to practice the mind side of testing, and pushing, and challenging...more reading, more curiosity, more knowledge, more questions, more writing, more listening....

After college I really felt the reality of our plight as people...it is easy to not challenge our mind because we are not "forced" to....remembering the times in college when I was so stimulated by learning was an exciting time. I am constantly reminded of this these days and as I strive to read more and write more and learn more, I can very easily drop into a lazy mind routine and make excuses...like I almost did today....the practice of practice i think is what it should be called if it isn't already...

I like that one...practice needs practice. Duh, look at Yoga, or meditation, or for that matter anything else we do on a regular basis that could be construed as practicing for the moment when you become "enlightened" in that practice....huh...

Well, I suppose i have given myself a little realization today and I will make a point today to practice...and tomorrow and forever....

The desire to practice...let's leave it at that.....


Love and Understanding

1 comment:

Ms. Conley said...

I think you are being to hard on yourself...practice requires patience and living life requires both (not an easy task). Anyway, if you want a decent book, or something, I just finished a book called "The Art of Racing in the Rain" Cute....told entirely from the perspective of a dog.....who wants to be a man..... Not that this book will change a lazy mind :O, which you do not have.....